Hold Your Breath (e-book) (used book) | Rana Bitar | bookbook.eu

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March 18, 2020Corona and Cancer

How much time do I have? The man asks.

With words muffled behind my double mask,

I mumble something. He accepts the answer,

the non-answer.

Sometimes, you ask just to hear the question

and not the response.

Is death disguised in the cancer cells inside him?

Or is it floating in the air around us?

I give him chemotherapy to chase away the first.

I wear a mask to trap out the second.

Equal fight?

Unknown.

The answer hides behind the mask of uncertainty.

What I had mumbled was:

How much time does life on Earth have?

I am glad he didn't hear it.

He is glad too.

Talking to people behind masks is tricky.

They can only see your eyes

and the frown in them can't hide behind a smile.

Truth. The truth is more naked behind a mask.

I feel each breath I take. How precious life is behind a mask!

Unmasked, you're never aware of breathing.

I hear my breath behind a mask.

How loud life is behind a mask!

Masks don't cover your vision. Only your gasp.

Google statistics.

Roll, roll, numbers roll. County's count. State's count. Nation's count. World's count.

In the beginning, I could add and subtract

yesterday's cases from today's. How many more?

Now I can't. With six digits, you lose track.

No. You won't lose your job,

I answer my single-mother secretary.

Did she smile? Can I see her mouth behind her mask?

Did she see the truth in my eyes?

Thank God for masks.

No one questions the truth in the eyes

if it doesn't come out of the mouth.

How many masks do I have?

I have to make some from scratch this weekend.